Pardon me if any of these images disturb you in any way.
Photography is an outlet for my deepest emotions. I like illustrating the feeling of elation, to feelings of suicide, death, and depression. But lol mostly the latter. Not everyone sees the darkest parts of a human being, and these photos I have above barely even scratch the surface.
I really want to take happy photos, I really do haha. But after several events that happened before 2017 ended, I'm finding it really hard to find that light again.
For those who know what happened, thank you for being there for me to hold my hand, and letting me cry a waterfall over your shoulders 'til I soaked your sleeves. Thank you for giving me tight hugs when I felt like I was going to fall apart completely. Thank you for not leaving me alone.
I still am, to this day, afraid of what I am capable of doing to myself. My past haunts me and I don't think that'll go away no matter how hard I try.
I think I've gotten so good at pretending I'm okay. Haha in my 23 years of existence, I've only shown one person my everything, from the good, to the crazy, to the worst. And that person's gone now. So I'm back to pretending, and that physically hurts me because I literally need to regurgitate my feelings. I don't want to pretend but I need to be strong to survive.
To whoever reads this, you're not alone in this. It's fucking miserable, and we all hate it. Pero kailangan natin pilitin tumayo ulit, because the good that we want to experience will only happen if we at least try to stand up again.
P.S.: Holla if u guys wanna see more of these non-commercial type of photos, lol I would want to delve into conceptual photography more